Saturday, March 30, 2013

Cheezburger

God is good, God is faithful.  Certainly more good and more faithful than I.



As I continued my job search, I found that as quickly as various job options were falling away (out of state, not the right fit, etc.), one option kept rising to the top.  About two weeks ago, I accepted a job offer for Chief Technical Officer at Cheezburger.

Cheezburger Network

Last week was my first week, and so far, it's going swimmingly.  I like the people I work with, they're very professional, likable, and committed to making Cheezburger a great business.

About a month ago, I was talking to a friend, who went through something similar.  While he was out of work, he said he obsessed over finding a new job.  Which is reasonable in the way of the world.

It wasn't until he let go of that obsession.  Let go of that "I" centric view, that "I" could MAKE something happen, that he found the perfect job.

For me, it happened in very much the same way.  It wasn't until I let go and surrendered to His will that this opportunity came along.

He is faithful.  He is Good. He answers prayer.  However, His timing is not our timing, and I learned a lot over these last few months, all for His good, and by extension, my good.


Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Seasons


We all know what seasons are.  Fall, Winter, Summer, Spring are the most commonly known.  But there are other seasons in our lives. 


A Time for Everything
There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven—
A time to give birth and a time to die;
  A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted.

A time to kill and a time to heal;
  A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to weep and a time to laugh;
  A time to mourn and a time to dance.
A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones;
  A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing.
A time to search and a time to give up as lost;
  A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear apart and a time to sew together;
  A time to be silent and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate;
  A time for war and a time for peace.
What profit is there to the worker from that in which he toils?I have seen the task which God has given the sons of men with which to occupy themselves.


Ecclesiastes 3: 1-11

And many of us also know:


To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to be born, a time to die
A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to build up, a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn
A time to cast away stones
A time to gather stones together

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time of war, a time of peace
A time of love, a time of hate
A time you may embrace
A time to refrain from embracing

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to gain, a time to lose
A time to rend, a time to sew
A time to love, a time to hate
A time of peace, I swear it's not too late!
 


- The Byrds


While these seasons don't exactly match up with Fall, Winter, Spring or Summer, they're still a measure of time in a person's life.

This season, for me, has been one of loss, and renewal.  A time of sorrow, and a time of learning.

God finds teaching in every season, and for me, I've come to realize that this season is a bit of a crucible.  A time in the refiner's fire.


Lord, come with Your fire
Burn my desires
Refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Refine me

My heart can't see
When I only look at me
My soul can't hear
When I only think of my own fears

They are gone in a moment
You're forever the same
Why did I look away from You
How can I speak Your name?

Lord, come with Your fire
Burn my desires
Refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Come rescue this child
For I long to be reconciled to You

It's all I can do
To give my heart and soul to You
And pray
And pray, oh I will pray


Jennifer Knapp - Refine me.


  • I've learned that wallowing in self-pity can be bizarrely satisfying, but is ultimately pointless.
  • I've learned that feeling sorry for yourself is the path to despair.  I tend to fall into that trap.
  • I've learned that I'm at my worst when I'm looking inward.
  • I've learned that I'm at my best when I'm looking outward.
  • I've learned that God has uniquely filled my life to weather this time. Both in terms of money and support.


Most of all, I've learned that I've been holding back from God.  That I still believe, somewhere deep inside, that if he doesn't come through for me, I can make it happen on my own.  You see, I'm a man of planning and organization, and I don't feel happy unless I have backup plans for backup plans.

But as I'm doing my job search, I'm finding all of those plans falling away.  I'm living without a net.  I'm unable to WILL this to happen.  There is no praise for ME.  There is no way to substitute my will for His in this. There is no backup plan that is not His will.

This is my crucible.

The crucible is for silver and the furnace for gold— but the LORD assays hearts
Proverbs 17;3

I can only fall back on His grace, and His mercy in this time.  If it's His will that we lose the house, then it's His will. if it's His will that I get a job that keeps us in Seattle, then it's His will.

How often do we pray: "Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven", but not mean it? 

I've learned to mean it.

He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also set eternity in their heart, yet so that man will not find out the work which God has done from the beginning even to the end.

I have seen that nothing is better than that man should be happy in his activities, for that is his lot.
Ecclesiastes 3:11-12